#22

Trying to play cool never works
I sit and stur  waiting for you to call
resisting the urge to call you myself
as to not seem needy
but all i want to do is hear your voice
speak to me as if you cared for me
you playing it cool
me playing it crazy

thoughts

I say i am lonely but i seem to put myself in these situations.....

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#21

If you only knew how much love i have to give to you
I could lay beside you all day and not move an inch
letting my love flow between us, like currents crashing on to the shore,
my love will fill you all over,


taking over your body like a virus that cant be cured
together we'd be infected, that's all love is but a virus
it takes hold of you and drains you dry
eating away at your heart day by day

thoughts

What if i am the problem. i look and all i see is an open road ahead but an empty road. i want to find someone i don't want it to be like this. alone is not where i want to be.

My List

I am going to start making my list for the things i want to do in my life. there are going to be some far out there things but all things that i want to do before i die.

thoughts

Do  you ever feel like you need a reason to do something? A reason to get up in the morning. A reason to go to school. I am finding it hard to find a reason for my life. I know what that sounds like but its not. I feel incomplete when i am by myself. I am always looking for that one person that will complete me. i feel like if i find that person that things will get better for me, I would start taking care of my self and i will feel like i have a reason to get up and do what ever it is i need to do. not only for my partner but for me. And i know what people would say: you need to find yourself before you can go looking for other people. but what if i don't know who i am with out that other person. its just hard being alone.

#20

Why am i last on my list 

should i not be first 

#19

Hope is what i have for myself
Hope is whats left

#18

DONTBECOMEFRIENDSWITHPEOPLEINRELATIONSHIPS,BECAUSEYOURGOINGTOBETHEONEGOINGHOMEALONEATTHEENDOFTHENIGHT

#17

Will i ever find you
Because all i want to do is love you
I am waiting
Endlessly

#16

Nowhere does it say i have to be what you want me
Nowhere is it written that i can not be who i am
Nowhere
Nowhere can i not go
Nowhere
Nowhere
Nowhere do i want to go with out you by my side
Nowhere does my love grow more for you than in my heart
Nowhere
Nowhere

#15

what ever you do its still going to be there
You cant get rid of it
Its gonig to eat you alive
consuming you
and spitting you back back out
life

#14

Never Have I Ever...................Been In Love...

#13

do u love me
like i love u

#12

it seems like nothing you do will ever stop it
you can feel it in your bones and all around you
you know one day your going to have to face it
but what do you do when that day has arrived

I see it all around me everyday
you read it in the news
you see it happen to your loved ones
you try and avoid it everyday
but slowly it creeps
it creeps in to you heart
and in to your vain's
inch by inch
your chest starts to hurt
or you cant catch your breath as fast as you use to
you start to loose the feeling in your fingers
soon your body becomes numb
and your emotions are going crazy because you know what is happening
and you know you cant stop it
so all you can do is wait
wait
wait
all the while waiting your soul is what goes first

#11

all i want is to see your face 
at the end of the day 
to know your home 
waiting for my warm embrace 
makes me enthusiastic 
of whats to come 

#10

I don't like you
I don't like your face
I don't like the way you try so hard
I don't like who you have become
I don't like how you got there
I don't like how easy you give in to others
I don't like how you try to fit the mold
I don't like how you know all of this
and you don't change a thing

Lulu

#9

wondering if we already met
I sit here examining your face
looking for a sign
an identity from my past
as you turn to start down a different path

#8

YOU
PLUS
ME
could EQUAL
WE
Who knows what would happen
when we come together
our heart could make no mistakes
With this simple equation
YOU

PLUS

ME 

could EQUAL...

You have to learn to be alone
before you can learn to love someone else.

go away

you ever want to disappear
not die
just go away
and see what happens

#7

Me loving you like this will never go any where
 looking at your picture
following your every move
All i want to do is say hello
to see what happens
just to hear my name from your lips
But me loving you like this will never get a chance

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#6

I cant see you with my eyes anymore
your like that distant blur
slowly fading away
into nothing

Lulu

#5

Wondering
If i can stand the site of my own refection
each time i look
the hole seems to get deeper and deeper
all i will have left is my shell

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#4

Nothing but the sound of the dryer to keep me company
alone
waiting for your call

#3

Can you really miss what you have never had?

In this case yes 

because i miss you every day i see you 

as you pass without a thought, or care in your mind

my eyes turning corners just to catch a glimpse

wondering if today is the day 

the day that our eyes meet 

that day time stands still if only for a second 

#2

all i need is you next to me
my head on your chest
your eyes locked on mine
all i need is you next to me.

#1

Alone in a room
Silent is the TV
what i feel is pain

#0

unseen to me
your eyes
i realize
i must see
as they are the guide
that turns me in the right direction

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